I Aspire To Have An Original Thought... One Day

Saying or thinking something like "I could work on [insert thing]. I don't hate it, but if I worked on it, I might feel better about it!" is completely fine.

Going from "I hate [thing] about myself" or "I'm ugly" to "I love everything about myself" and "I am beautiful, nothing is bad about me!" is quite unhealthy in itself, because you're just going from one extreme to the other.

A middle ground exists, and it's okay to be there about some things! It's healthy looking at yourself in a neutral light sometimes, because you're not bashing yourself, but also admitting that you're still just a person and not perfect, because nobody is perfect. Everybody has something they don't like that much about themselves, and if it's just something 'small' like "Everytime I eat something with a sauce, it ends up on my shirt." (taking myself as an example here). And that's fine.

Something I learned from over a decade of therapy is that

• Small steps are still steps
• Going from one extreme to the other is not 'progressive', it's unhealthy and quite harmfull because it can cause you to not be able to handle criticism of yourself in a healthy manner (even if said criticism comes from yourself); Reacting with "No, I am completely fine and you are wrong!" every time is just as bad as constantly reaming into yourself. Not to mention it comes across as incredibly arrogant and ignorant (even if it isn't meant in that way).
• Having problem zones is fine. It's how you handle your feelings about it that matters.
• A grey zone exists for a lot of things and it's so, SO important, especially in modern, social media driven society where it's pretty easy to find people that agree with basically anything, no matter how extreme (good or bad).
• Nobody is perfect. And that's okay.
• You're constantly learning and changing, including opinions on things. That's a good thing.

Idk man I suck at putting it into words but basically, self-love =/= loving every little thing about yourself. Self-love is being good to yourself, but also admitting and understanding that you're not and will never be perfect. Self-love is being able to admit when you're wrong and apologize for it, learning from it. Self-love is deciding to work on things you don't like about yourself, instead of claiming it to be "fine" or "perfect" when you feel like it isn't. Self-love is not constantly putting yourself down, but also being able to say "Yes, this time I messed up." and dealing with the consequences, learning from your mistake and trying your best to not repeat it. Self-love is doing your best to not fall into unhealthy behaviours for your own sake, while also being able to understand and admit that everyone has bad days, weeks, months, and that doesn't make you a failure.

Self-love is admitting that you're not perfect, but that's okay because no one is. Self-love is trying your best to be happy with yourself, while understanding that you're still a human capable of goofing up, like everyone else.

Obviously this is just my view point and it's fine if someone disagrees I guess, just felt like putting my thoughts down. Hopefully I didn't get too off-topic gnbdjh keeping things short is hard when words are hard.

(I also didn't want to just burst in and hijack anyone's post, in case they don't like me interacting with it. This way it's easier for people that don't like me to simply ignore me. I'm not a fan of leaving a novel on someone else's post in case they feel uncomfortable with it ngdjfk)

1. Preheat the oven to 425°F (about 218°C)
2. Place the potatoes on a microwave-safe plate, stab them with a fork multiple times to aerate them, and microwave on high for ten minutes. [You may want to reduce this cooking time depending on the power of your microwave.]
3. When the potatoes are cool enough to handle, cut in half and set aside.
4. In the meantime, heat 1 Tbsp oil in a large, oven-safe skillet over medium heat.
5. Season the chicken with salt and pepper [I also like the original Mrs. Dash instead of pepper, but it's up to you]
6. Cook the chicken skin-side down in the skillet until crispy and golden brown (about 8-10 minutes).
7. Remove the chicken from the skillet and set it aside skin-side-up on a plate.
8. Add the remaining oil to the skillet along with the garlic, onions, red pepper and chopped rosemary and cook, stirring, for 2 min.
9. Add in the potatoes and carrots and season with salt and pepper to taste. Toss to combine.
10. Nestle the chicken in the skillet among the vegetables and garnish with rosemary sprigs.
11. Roast the whole pan in the oven until the chicken is cooked and the vegetables are tender, about 30-35 minutes. (The FDA recommends chicken be cooked to a temperature of 165°F [about 74°C].)

Enjoy! And try not to cry too much when you're cutting up those vegetables; onion and rosemary and bell pepper is a powerful combination XD

The bad scare I had was when I powered everything up, first the cosmetic LEDs didn't come on, but everything else booted fine, which was an easy fix. I even got photos of everything after making sure those were working 100%. I assumed everything was hyper kosher and went about booting up my usual programs, including FFXIV, which I'd forgotten about when I started poking around waterfall. That's when I noticed that images had this very particular artifacts on them. :)

My reaction was as follows:

I then started moving stuff around and seeing what happened when I switched screens, reloaded windows, etc and witnessed extremely gut wrenching behavior that confirmed that yeah. This was my GPU fucking up. Not many things can cause those artifacts and whole assets in FFXIV (like my now black, textureless boots) to completely unload.

Of course I start panicing because ofc I do. This is the single most expensive part in my PC and its exactly the last part I'd want to fail. Replacing it at this point would be devastating and near impossible (not to mention costly both in time and money). But I pull my heart out of throat and my stomach up from my knees enough to think "god what must I have done to this thing". Of which, I hadn't thought I'd really done anything! As far as I knew, all I'd done is unplug its power cord, fiddle with shit round the back and plug the same power cord back in. But of course I knew that in the midst of fucking around with every other cord (especially that damn SSD who refused to stay seated and plugged in) I must have knocked it around a few times. So, as with most trouble shooting, start with the easiest stuff first. Maybe the connections are misaligned. So I unscrewed the back plate then unseated and reseated that hoe and turned it all back on to see if anything had changed.

And boy oh fucking boy am I glad to have, since, not seen a single graphical fuck up, because I didn't have anything else to try without spending 2 hours googling shit. Which probably would have disrupted my everything even more than just doing these fiddles and writing up this post has done, which is to say, before I started this task, I completely made a pan of food and planned 100% to get a bowl and sit down and watch something on my Chromecast, then maybe start poking around at my computer. Brain went haywire for approximately an hour and a half to two hours hyper focusing on getting this shit figured out and done. Hell, I'd actually stood up went "yeah fuck I need to go eat now" pranced into the kitchen and but a bowl in the microwave. Then I discovered my GPU being naughty and wrote up this post. I have yet to retrieve my bowl. (I'll get there eventually"""" )

Another set of good news; back before I'd built what I've dubbed "Starkid", when I was still using ye olde Memeshit Supreme (who has since been dissolved), I had tried to connect my wireless earbuds to my computer because that sounded super dope, I hadn't bought my wireless headset yet, and I really love my earbuds. :') Also, now that I have purchased and used my over the ear headset for a while, I can say that, while its really convenient and of good quality, if I wear it long enough, it get hella uncomfortable and starts to hurt. So for casual listening to shit and maybe a short call here and there, I would still like to have my earbuds available to use. But at the time, the bluetooth dongle I had wasn't fantastic and any audio I was getting was choppy as fuck. I even bought another bluetooth dongle with a grade higher bluetooth and it still wasn't enough.

Because of this, bluetooth was a heavy consideration when i was picking out motherboards way back in the planning stage of this computer. Which is to say, I wifi and bluetooth are built into my motherboard and I can screw on any antennae I'd like in order to utilize it. And, as I had hoped, its way fucking stronger than a USB dongle could ever hope to be and my earbuds work absolutely perfectly (so far. I haven't tried out the mic quality on them yet, but I've had phone calls on them and they've never seemed to have a problem. I'd assume they were the bottle neck for quality at this point).

I can say tho, Tumblr did not tell me lies about this movie. If you ever had a question about how anything is the way it is it's because they just want it to happen. It's worse than a super out there crack fic with the premise of making Cruella relatable and cool.

I can say tho, Tumblr did not tell me lies about this movie. If you ever had a question about how anything is the way it is it's because they just want it to happen. It's worse than a super out there crack fic with the premise of making Cruella relatable and cool.