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Im making goddamn mistakes again.

This time I'm staying up way too fucking late. I haven't taken a shower and I need to wake up in less than 5 hours. I probably should wake up earlier than that to make sure food is a thing I consume, but, ya know. Thats probably not fucking happening bc I know myself.

Though, looking on the bright side, if I am balls tired at work I might come home and go to bed early for once in my fucking life and actually start fixing my sleep schedule :')

Or at least a man can dream.

I still gotta make it through this shift at work without murder though. So thats fun.

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I'm just a fucking disaster tonight.

I got 4 hours and counting. 👍



star-rice(he/him)
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Im making goddamn mistakes again.

This time I'm staying up way too fucking late. I haven't taken a shower and I need to wake up in less than 5 hours. I probably should wake up earlier than that to make sure food is a thing I consume, but, ya know. Thats probably not fucking happening bc I know myself.

Though, looking on the bright side, if I am balls tired at work I might come home and go to bed early for once in my fucking life and actually start fixing my sleep schedule :')

Or at least a man can dream.

I still gotta make it through this shift at work without murder though. So thats fun.


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New Laws in Texas just dropped 🙃 (cw: guns/violence)

"Texans over the age of 21 will now be able to carry a handgun without a license in Texas.

Referred to as “constitutional carry,” this law removes the requirement of obtaining a state-issued license (and the training and background check that is part of that process) in order to carry a handgun in public.

Texans may carry pistols openly or concealed, as long as they are not prohibited from possessing a firearm.

Long guns, including shotguns and rifles, do not require a license to carry in public in Texas."

Part of me wants to watch the mass shootings and other gun crimes skyrocket because the fuck else do you think is going to goddamn happen? This sure as fuck isn't gonna lower them. But I know damn well that those gun crimes are going to be toward minority groups and will feed abusive situations. And its going to be sad. A fucked state to live in rn.

Its going to be even more cringe when I see a goddamn gun in public now. Thanks for that.

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Like, the only okay things to have changed lately is that cops have to wear bodycams at all times during investigation, a slightly upped dose tolerance for marijuana (1% up from .5%) and I guess we can buy beer and wine on sundays now. :I

On the other hand, we have open carry without a license, more restrictive abortion laws, schools cant teach critical race theory, and all professional sporting events are required by law to play the national anthem before every game :)))))

This states government is so goddamn ass-backwards. It hurts to live here.



star-rice(he/him)
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New Laws in Texas just dropped 🙃 (cw: guns/violence)

"Texans over the age of 21 will now be able to carry a handgun without a license in Texas.

Referred to as “constitutional carry,” this law removes the requirement of obtaining a state-issued license (and the training and background check that is part of that process) in order to carry a handgun in public.

Texans may carry pistols openly or concealed, as long as they are not prohibited from possessing a firearm.

Long guns, including shotguns and rifles, do not require a license to carry in public in Texas."

Part of me wants to watch the mass shootings and other gun crimes skyrocket because the fuck else do you think is going to goddamn happen? This sure as fuck isn't gonna lower them. But I know damn well that those gun crimes are going to be toward minority groups and will feed abusive situations. And its going to be sad. A fucked state to live in rn.

Its going to be even more cringe when I see a goddamn gun in public now. Thanks for that.


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I think today is the first time I've gotten legit mad over covid and the amount of time has been lost and the amount of stress it's caused.

Like, 1 year anniversary was like "of course this is still going on, most everyone fucked up the response horribly!" but we're coming up the 2nd year mark quicker than I'd like and its settled in that we really really do not know when this is going to end. I had guessed about 2-3 years about the beginning of all this, but I've had a moment to think about just how long 3 years is and how much its drug into the light the inequalities in the US and in the whole world. And its even worse how quick the fucking news cycle still is (and thats not a thing that I see an end to) and the world is changing even more. I feel less secure in my knowledge of like, anything. Like I'm skating by more and more and more. And just god, how can anyone be expected to function amidst all this? And I don't have nearly as many disadvantaging circumstances as a lot of other people. How can the US still suck this much? (the answer is trump and that party's atrocities imo) I know good things are happening, but theyre not sensationalized bad news is. And thats part of the problem.The last like, 5 years has been a steady, consistent and logarithmic increase in the rate of bad shit that continues to happen over and over and over again. And its awful! And it doesn't matter how much I look it in the face and realize thats whats happening, nothing I can do can change it, so why acknowledge it at all? So I can feel performative of my humanity by bitching about it on the internet? It's neither new or revolutionary. What's the fucking point. It just reminds me that the government just cannot, will not give the damns that they need to to protect our fucking country. At any moment, the people who need action the most, can and have every right to die about it.

I just.... I've been having a lot of thoughts lately about how many lies we were fed as children... whether it was about society or the country itself. About our futures.... and sure yeah all of it has history and an explaination to how and why it all happened. But that doesn't make it hurt any less. And its definitely not an excuse for further inaction.


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Places I didn't expect to be exceedingly busy at 7pm: The Fucking Pharmacy


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Good lord. Classes haven't even started and already I'm wanting to commit crimes over the stress I'm experiencing.

For the moment, the culprit most contributing to stress is textbooks :')

The landscape for textbooks is both better and worse than it was 4 years ago. The worst part of the worst is that they keep fucking updating textbooks so you have to buy the newest one (which honestly, isn't fucking new but ugh). I hard decided to get my rented E-textbooks from a particular place because #1 its on the cheap end of my available paid options and #2 - I'm p sure I can remove the DRM and throw them to people who can distribute. Because if I have to pay for this shit, I'm for sure going to keep it. Fuck renting. But also, if I buy it, if I can make it so even one person doesn't have to, thats a win in my book.

You want to talk about shit that radicalized you? This is one of those things for me. Fuck this bullshit.


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Making a habit out of drinking (water) when you're bored is great and all, right up until you realize you're much less bored at home than you are at work and youve had two days off in a row of which you've maybe had some liquids at every meal, but you've honestly only had like one meal a day since youve been grazing/snacking the entire time and now you have to go into work feeling very viscerally dehydrated.

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So, I already hated the idea of Microsoft Office 365. Like, its objectively bad instantly because its a subscription based service and, in the same way as I will never join Adobe in their pay to play hell, Microsoft can eat a whole dick about it. I guess its whatever because I was never gonna pay full price for any of their products literally ever. Never have, never will. But I'm super hacked off that Microsoft has completely destroyed any avenue for downloading and activating previous Office versions. Like, I have a key. A real key that I bought probably about 6 years ago (iirc) and I just cant move Office 2016 to my new PC because I can't find a download that isn't from some third party I don't trust.

Like at this point I might as well just torrent a cracked version of this bitch (and I just might). But for now I'm just mad because, while this probably happened a couple years ago, their insistence on connecting keys to accounts and running everything through their bullshit systems while also completely trashing and burning older versions of their software just to promote their bullshit subscription service is infuriating. Like what's next? We gonna have to pay a subscription for Windows 11? Never be allowed access to Windows 10 ever again. Fuck Keys, who needs 'em when access to world standard operating system is compulsory and locked behind a recurrent paywall.


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Dear motherfuckers with loudass cars who think its funny to be the loudest shithead on the planet,
Fuck You.

Sincerely, the person with an anxiety disorder whom you just scared the living shit out of.


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I'm the kind of tired right now where your eyes hurt and all you want to do is go back to bed. Like viscerally, you're convinced that this is all your heart has ever wanted... And you have to go to work.


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THE LAST THREE DAYS HAVE BEEN ONE SLEEPING MISCALCULATION AFTER ANOTHER AND ISTG IM GONNA DIE.

in short, after already being critically low on sleep and surviving on naps alone, my brain completely forgot that I don't, in fact, work at 2pm tomorrow. I work at 11am.

I am... This close to calling in.


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There is one kind of person worse than people who don't stop for stop signs: People who stop for stop signs, but then DO NOT LOOK FOR THE CAR THEY ARE SUPPOSEDLY STOPPING FOR.


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Me: I hate the creative process

Also me: -would die without it-

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In other (but related) news, I'm desperately trying to art while knowing my brain is having a bad time. The hope is that the process will help brain, but brain is throwing a HUGE fit about the content of said art, so I'm having to cut down parts of the process to juke my brain into cooperating.



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Please let the fuel station be open today. I don't want to work inside for 8 hours :((( I'm not used to that kind of abuse.


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BULLSHIT COWORKER FINALLY GOT FIRED AND I COULD NOT BE MORE ELATED 🎉

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@marpleblarp commented on this post:
congrats!!! must feel so good!

Understatement of the year. I've been working with her for 2 years and she's only gotten worse in that time.



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The more I have insurance, the more I dont want to have insurance I swear to fucking god.

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@UnidentifiedBlog commented: "insurance is a scam i s2g"

Oh definately. 100%. But in the same way that the government witholding money I don't owe them (and then giving it back way later without intrest) is a scam, I am forced to participate in this circus to even begin to keep my shit straight.

Tbh, our whole country is just one big fucking pedigree clown show. 🥳



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