25 | He/Him | Masc Trans NB | Certified Dumbass | Supposedly an Adult
Dear motherfuckers with loudass cars who think its funny to be the loudest shithead on the planet,
Sincerely, the person with an anxiety disorder whom you just scared the living shit out of.
I'm the kind of tired right now where your eyes hurt and all you want to do is go back to bed. Like viscerally, you're convinced that this is all your heart has ever wanted... And you have to go to work.
Spotify: Spotify desktop just got simpler!
Me: You made it more like mobile. Didn't you. You bastards....
THE LAST THREE DAYS HAVE BEEN ONE SLEEPING MISCALCULATION AFTER ANOTHER AND ISTG IM GONNA DIE.
in short, after already being critically low on sleep and surviving on naps alone, my brain completely forgot that I don't, in fact, work at 2pm tomorrow. I work at 11am.
I am... This close to calling in.
Governer Greg Abbott is a dumb son of a bitch and I hope he catches covid and dies.
Also I got new glasses so three cheers for the break in headache I'm currently fucking with.
There is one kind of person worse than people who don't stop for stop signs: People who stop for stop signs, but then DO NOT LOOK FOR THE CAR THEY ARE SUPPOSEDLY STOPPING FOR.
Me: I hate the creative process
Also me: -would die without it-star-rice
In other (but related) news, I'm desperately trying to art while knowing my brain is having a bad time. The hope is that the process will help brain, but brain is throwing a HUGE fit about the content of said art, so I'm having to cut down parts of the process to juke my brain into cooperating.
DEAR THE GOVERNMENT, GIVE ME MY MONEY.
I'm at work, and I had to literally check the time between transactions, but I didn't see a living soul for over half an hour.
Please let the fuel station be open today. I don't want to work inside for 8 hours :((( I'm not used to that kind of abuse.
The more I have insurance, the more I dont want to have insurance I swear to fucking god.star-rice
@UnidentifiedBlog commented: "insurance is a scam i s2g"
Oh definately. 100%. But in the same way that the government witholding money I don't owe them (and then giving it back way later without intrest) is a scam, I am forced to participate in this circus to even begin to keep my shit straight.
Tbh, our whole country is just one big fucking pedigree clown show. 🥳
The more I have insurance, the more I dont want to have insurance I swear to fucking god.
Another day, another morning where I viscerally do not want to get up and go to work.
PFFFT why is cyberpunk: 2077 so incredibly unstable jfc
I'm so fucking sick of windows updates hgnngnstar-rice
wtf do you mean "Cleaning up" why do you have a whole screen for this
ughhh MOOD... At least yours does the cleanup though. When it didn't do the cleanup for me on my old comp I had to do a manual cleanup & delete the old OS files >:C Which took up almost 100gb of data after 6 months of me not realising it wasn't deleting old OS stuff (on my new comp, it now takes up only 300mb). The old computer also wants to update literally *every time it shuts down*. I can turn it off, turn it on, then immediately turn it off and it will update!! Like dude!!! What are you even updating?!
Thats what its doing?! What the fuck do you mean it doesn't do that automatically????
Why is Windows a veritable dumpster fire. But also good fucking thing that it did a "clean up" because the main hard drive my OS sits on is only 300gb big and only has about 72gb free. If it wasn't deleting its old OS files, we'd run into a big problem real fuckin fast. My PC needs that space to be able to function with any amount of speed.
Windows updates suck for a variety of reasons, but them being forced is one of them. I access my computer from remote desktop all the time. Thus, my computer must actually be online at all times. This wouldn't be a problem except that I have a temp guage error that pops during BIOS and will not continue to boot without a keypress. So when Windows updates and it turns itself off and on about 10 times durring that process, it gets held up every time because I have to be around to press F1 to continue booting. Which means, if Windows updates, I cannot access my PC until I get home and take the required 30 minutes to an hour babysitting it for the update to be over. And I'm completely fucked if I'm out and about and need something off my hard drive.
I'm so fucking sick of windows updates hgnngn
Hi, I would really love if the U.S. healthcare system wasn't a huge dumpsterfire!
My union of all people: we know Covid has been tough on our country, especially essential workers. You're hard work is immeasurable.
Me: no the fuck it's not. Money. Give me money. Compensate my risk with money. Give me hazard pay. Burn down my company's headquarters until they give us more than our slave wages. And if you really want to make me happy, force them to call it hostage pay. Because that's what this situation is, and has been, for EIGHT MONTHS. Miss me with this "immeasurable" bullshit. It's sure as fuck measurable with our time and deaths. If this company had any moral bone in it's body, my hard work work would be correctly compensated with money not empty gestures. If you want to breed solidarity, oh dearest union of mine, express to me how much you're fighting for the things we need to make this situation closer to livable.
Why the fuck are we so busy today! It's a goddamn Wednesday for fucks sake!
Me, dramatic and woeful: why do I feel so terrible today. Ah! I just cannot go on! Why do I suffer so? Is life just so terrible and depressing that it's taking it's final steps to strike me low?
Me, remembering the full liter and a half of wine I solo'd last night: I should uh.... Probably drink some water....
So at work I do all transactions from behind 2 inches of glass and with the use of a speaker and drawer system.
Well, yesterday our speaker started acting funny and while I can still hear customers, I cannot speak to them. So I have a sign explaining as such. It's sometimes a moot point because customers can't fucking read. Thankfully as a retail worker that needs to go on autopilot to conserve sanity, I had my whole process down to a script anyway, so with the use of note cards I've been able to keep transactions mostly as smooth as before, but this sure is a fun and frustrating exercise in what it would be like to be mute. It's made extra fun by customers who act as if this wildly inconveniences them and no one else, but most people have been incredibly understanding and have had fun with it. Extra thankfully, due to the glass, I do t have to wear a face mask and I can still mouth words at them if I don't have a cue card available.
8 hours of this shit sure if gonna be interesting, lemme tell you.
absolutely transphobic that businesses close super early. esp pharmacy. Now i gotta get dressed. And do errands. Its onlly 8:30pm. Why must i be forced into doing things during 'normal' hours.
Also. There are too many goddamn people at the grocery store for 9pm :/